Tomorrow I go in for my pre-surgery meeting for blood work, an EKG, and a meeting with the anesthesiologist. I'm going by myself, I hope that's okay and that it's not anything too overwhelming. I'm going to bring some paper to take notes, but sometimes (especially lately) I space out and can't take good notes. I'll just make sure to repeat my notes to them and tell them I have chemobrain :)
I scheduled myself a massage for Thursday afternoon, I figure I might as well do it while I can and while I'm not worried about another friggin' scar and the pain associated with it. I can never have too much relaxation in my life lately, so bring it on! As I typed that, I realized that I was clenching my teeth, damn stress!
Today I decided to pop into work and say Hi to everyone since I don't know when I'll have time to again, since I probably won't be driving for a while. It was good to see everyone, and I got to meet with our CEO to catch up, I totally convinced her on purchasing a Nintendo Wii for our office! I think Nintendo should start throwing some cash my way since I'm like the Wii pimp these days! We have one of those giant projection screens which would be awesome for Wii, so hopefully in the next few weeks they'll have gotten one! :)
Me and Mandy were supposed to play tennis today, I got to her apartment, and we even changed into our tennis gear (aka sweatpants, ha ha!) only to find out these other guys were playing, and they ended up playing for a few hours, so tennis was a no go! Oh well! We got manicures instead, and then went and got some dinner. When we got back to her apartment Jeff and Scott were there so we all got to hang out for a while. Good times.
Hmmm what else....? I guess that's really all that's going on with me lately. I'm scheduled for surgery on Friday, surgery starts around 10:30am and I have to be there for 9am, dad is going to take me. I'm trying to decide if I'm going to go to my parents house on Thursday night so that my car is there or if I should just have him pick me up at my apartment like planned. I'll figure it out probably on Thursday. But I'm definitely going to at least get my massage before I leave :) I'm hoping it'll help make my body feel a lil better too, maybe help me heal better after surgery too since my blood will be moving better and stuff. Speaking of blood, I'm kind of mad at myself for being such a bitch and getting my port out so quick since I'll probably be doing a bunch of blood work and have IVs and stuff for surgery, damnit! I'm planning on most likely having some giant IV bruises, sad lamb! Oh well, shit happens!
Okay, well that's all I got...I think...I feel like I'm missing stuff, but I can't think of what. Sorry everyone, I've been really bad at returning emails and phone calls this week, I'll try and get better soon, or just keep stalking me and eventually you'll get a response. I hope everyone is well!
PS - One kinda creepy, morbid thing....I'm thinking about writing something incase I die during my surgery, or become brain dead, since those are some of the possible side effects... I was told 1/1,000 people die from this surgery, and well if you think about it, what's the statistic of people getting Hodgkin's -- pretty low (okay I just looked it up, an estimated 8,190 people will be diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma in 2007) -- so in the grand scheme of things, it really is a freaky possibility that I could be the 1 out of 1,000... and just for the record, if I become weird and freakishly brain dead, I would rather just have the plug pulled. If there's no hope for me to feel normal, know what's going on, etc, what's the point in living. So anyways, as morbid as it sounds, I might write something, but I'm not sure what. Just thought I would share, sorry for the creepiness.