Not much of an update but thought I should post something so you know I didn't drive off a cliff or something. I've been trying to keep really busy, because if I don't keep busy and have time to think about things, I drive myself crazy. Yesterday I went to Northampton and hung out with Greg for a while. We walked and shopped and had fun. I bought some random stuff to entertain my stressed-out-self, I also tried on some funny wigs with Greg -- who is bald, so ya know, maybe we'll be twins. But there was this one wig that was a short bob with short bangs - it was a dark redish, brownish, funky one and it looked pretty good, but also funky crazy. It wasn't that expensive, but I really need to find that store that Jess bought all of my funny wigs at because they were super cheap and only $5 each. I bought a cute hat, incase I need a hat. I totally forgot about the cool shopping and bargain prices to be had in Northampton. I also bought Greg a funny mustache and ummm a cute headband....oh yeah and one of those eye packs, ya know the ones you can put in the fridge to de-puff your eyes when you cry a lot. I dunno, I think that's mostly what I bought there, but we walked a lot and did a lot of browsing and then grabbed some sandwiches. I then hit the mall on the way home since I decided the pants I always wear (aka my fat pants) make me look fatter than I actually am, so I went to try on some new jeans, but of course they were all too long, so I gotta order them online to get em short enough. I did however buy myself a new purple tshirt and sweater, I decided purple is my new favorite color to wear this fall :) Oh AND I bought myself new shampoo, it smells like honey, might as well while I can, eh? The best part is, the girl at the store was so happy that someone had come in - she said I was the first person to come in in the past hour...so anyways, she gave me a discount just because she thought it was a pain in the butt that they didn't have the same sized shampoo and conditioner! HA! AND she gave me a free card to get 10% off everytime I go there, which typically you have to buy once a year for $10, but nope she gave me it for free just because! And then I told her that my birthday was this weekend, and she said, Oh even better! HA! So yeah, some good productive retail therapy. Judy even got me a gift certificate for the Gap so I'll order my jeans soon :) Oh and I finally got my next LTD check and I got the Leukemia and Lymphoma check -- it was supposed to be $500 but it was $438, so I gotta find out what happened and figure out what to submit to get the rest of the money from. But still, yay! Big weight off my shoulders!
Oh and tonight I went out to dinner with Nicole, and then we went and got her some fun new makeup and then made ourselves look ridiculous at Sephora. We put on bright lime green and bright blue eye shadows, I'm sure the people that worked there hated us, we were acting like 15 year olds.
Anywho, I'm off to bed shortly. I've got to get up at a reasonable hour so I can go to my spa day at 12:30!! Oh and I gotta go to NEMC tomorrow to pick up scan stuff....I still haven't heard from the surgeon at Dana Farber yet, so hopefully she calls me tomorrow.
One more thing I have to share that really made my day so much more difficult today. So I had been pondering switching to Dana Farber for the past few weeks, just because now I feel like I'm in specialist territory now with all of this funky PET scan business. So when I met with Dr. Fisher on Tuesday and heard his concerns, I decided that I needed to make the switch, not because I hated my oncologist at NEMC or because I didn't feel like I getting taken care of -- because I knew I was, and I knew they really cared about me there... but I just felt like I needed an oncologist that has a lot of experience with Hodgkin's. I feel like I need somewhere that has lots of money and resources because I'm fighting for my life, damnit! Anyways, Tina called me back this morning, and she seemed like she was mad at me for switching hospitals. It really hurt my feelings and made me start off my day terribly. Everyone I had talked to said she would be fine and wouldn't be offended, but it really didn't feel that way, and it just hurt, a lot. I really hope we can still stay close, and it had nothing to do with her, it had to do with me fighting for my life.
Hopefully tomorrow will be a little better of a day.