- Retail therapy - I tried it yesterday and it worked a little but when I tried again tonight I just wanted to burst out in tears at the mall. I thought maybe I could buy myself something cute to make myself feel better - and maybe look better, but guess what? Nothing fit or they didn't have it in my size! I hate it, I just wanted to go start throwing up and never eat again :(
- Eating junk food - it just reminds me that my clothes don't fit and then I feel like crap.
- Napping - it only passes time, but then I wake up and I'm still cranky and then feel like I need to do something, but I have nothing to do.
- Talking to people - it just makes me cry and feel like I'm supposed to be in a good mood since I'm always pretty tough, but I'm just a mess lately. It's tough when people don't get it, and then I have to explain stuff again and again. And it just makes me more depressed when I have to tell them that there is another spot and that there isn't anything we can do yet - just do more waiting! I hate waiting. I hate not having answers or master plans or being organized!
If anyone has any better suggestions please let me know.