Crazy I know! Sorry I've been slacking and only posting once or twice a week. I constantly am thinking about things I should write, or that I need to write, or want to vent about - usually when I'm driving, which isn't conducive to blogging - surprising, I know! Maybe I should carry a tape recorder - but I don't think it would be the same as just dumping random thoughts down like I typically do - because there would be a whole lot more editing going on, and who needs edits in cancertown, duh! :)
So what's new with me? Not a whole lot. I'm getting a little more work to do these days and am trying to keep as busy as possible while I'm there... I should probably do some more reading. I think I'm going to sign up for a feed program of some sort - I think we typically use FeedBurner, but I dunno... I heard people love BlogLines.... so we'll see. Which leads me to my next random thought - my hits have substantially dropped lately - I basically know everyone that clicks on my pages, and it's mostly people I talk to on a regular basis - ya know, my parents, and some cancer pals, and a few friends once in a while... so here's the question - are more of you reading that I know of, and you're all high tech and using feeds to read my blog, so I don't actually get hits? OR have people just stopped reading because I don't have cancer anymore - which is me and my dad's theory, and most of my friends have said the same thing... SOOOO if you're reading this, leave me a comment on this post. Feeds or not, damnit! :) And if you don't know what all this feed jargon is, then you probably don't have them set up, so nevermind, but still leave me a comment!
Back to what's going on with me.... I had lunch today with Kari today, which was good, and hilllarious. We discussed lots of randomness, from PR to Match.com. I sort of signed up to try Match.com this weekend. I got a sales email saying it was 88% off for 72 hours only. They clearly go after people when they're at their loneliest, the Saturday after Thanksgiving, thinking about the spinster life that lies ahead of them.... ha! Anywho, I don't love it so far... I tried it once before, and canceled it after a few months, and the same dudes that emailed me then, and that I said hey we're not compatible, I'm not interested, or whatever... apparently don't pay much attention, because they started emailing me again, and the funniest thing is, they have the same sad pictures up, or sketchy profile details, like I really like to watch Sci-Fi and Fantasy movies (BARF) and it blocks out their living situation because they clearly live in their parents basement playing Dungeons an Dragons until 4am every night... because they don't know it's night, duh, they're in the basement! Soo I'm going to stick with Match for a little while, it was only like $25 for 6 months, so whatever... afterall, I'm just ramping up for 2008... which is really going to be when things happen... hopefully.... and hmmm maybe someone reading this will think, oh I know the perfect single man for you, and no, he doesn't play D&D or live in his parents basement, and yes, he has two eyebrows and all his teeth (bonus!)... and if that's the case, send him my way! Afterall, I'm not in menopause anymore : )
I'm a optimist with a pinch of cynicism and a dash of fuck you :) So yeah, it's lame, and weird to admit that I signed up for Match, but some people have had luck - and it's worth a shot, right? Isn't admitting you have a problem half the battle? Ha... wait, that's AA
It was good to have PR talk with Kari, someone who knows the pre cancer Kelly - because I've forgotten so much. I've tried to describe my lack of memory as like I've been an alcoholic for 24 years, and now at 25, I've straightened up and have gotten sober, but only remember things from the past few months... I'm not an alcoholic, obviously, but that's the only way I can describe it. People will ask me about a movie and say did you see XYZ? And I did, so I say, yes, then they'll ask if I remember a specific part of the movie, but really, all I remember is that I saw the movie, but remember nothing at all about it! It's kind of eerie and scary. I hope things come back, otherwise, I'm going to have to go back to college or something! Seriously...
Anywho, other than that, not much is going on. I'm going to Maine on Saturday with Mandy to go to her pal Carolyn's Christmas cookie swap party - I'm making these (hopefully) delicious peanut butter cookies with Hershey's kisses on top - it's a mix, but that's the closest to home made you'll get from me... and last year, I went but didn't bring any cookies, and now I'm stepping it up this year, so yay! :)
Other than that, I don't have much planned. I might go try and find this "secret" sneaker store in Boston on Sunday - it's apparently a Bodega on the front, but in the back is an old school sneaker bonanza - I saw a quick shot of it on TV the other night - and there were lots of old school, colorful Nike's there... so I think I might buy myself a fabulous Christmas present. Some women love fabulous heels and boots, which I own, but I don't love any like I love my sneakers -- I think I was a guy, or an emo/punk rock kid in a previous life... either way, I'm going to buy new sneakers - I don't care if I spend $200... okay, I care, but if I love them, I might pretend I won the lottery!
Oh and I almost forgot - I've been talking to a woman from the Boston Globe who is writing a book about cancer, and chemo brain, etc. Which is kind of cool knowing someone at a major paper writing a book about a topic so close to home to me these days --- but the even cooler thing about it is that she's been interviewing me as well! As of now, she's planning on having my story as a focus of one of her chapters, and we talked today so she could get some more nitty gritty details about my treatment, and of course, hear some randomness and cancer jokes from me.... kind of cool, right?
Anywho, that's all I've got. It's already 10pm, and I started this post around 5:45 tonight, and have gotten side tracked a bajillion times already! Time to close the computer!!